I am slipping

12:59 am

i would just like everyone to know that my life is amazing.

I got into Ann Arbor.  That right there is enough to make my life amazing.  but it gets better.

Friday (yesterday) was the New Found Glory/The Early November concert and TEN decided to play an acoustic set, and they just played what people yelled out, and they played "Pretty Pretty!"  By far my favorite song, but its  unreleased and only about 10 people in the entire venue had heard of it.  Ace introduced it saying he hadn't played it in about 4 years and he forgot half the lyrics, but it was still absolutely unbelievable.

The Tigers are going to the World Series!  My dad wants to go to game 1, but who knows if we'll get tickets.  The fabulous Michigan Wolverines are still undefeated :)

I babysat tonight and they paid me really well.  yay!  and they got home relatively early.  

there are some things that suck right now (certain problems with a certain person, none of you who are reading this, don't worry and a five page paper due on wednesday that I don't know how to write), but the good are outweighing the bad right now.  Especially the Ann Arbor thing.  I'm pretty sure i'm moving out there, so now all i can focus on is how excited i am to find an apartment and everything.  EEeeeee!  i'm so excited!

Current Mood: happy

09:37 pm

this weekend i worked 25 hours between friday saturday and sunday.

saturday i worked with my manager and we had a discussion about why i have not yet been made a supervisor when everyone else that she has hired has been.  she told me that i am the only worker who is serious about school, and she doesn't want me to be stressed out over work when school should be my first priority.  I'm not at all upset, i don't even think i want to be a supervisor, i just wanted to know why everyone else was getting promoted and not me.  she was super nice about it and she said i am by far the best worker in the store and she knows i would be the best supervisor, she just doesn't want to put that kind of pressure on me.  she also said she nominated me for employee of the quarter :)  i aboslutely love her.

i was supposed to get off at noon that day (saturday), but the person coming in after me didn't show up.  when danylle (the manager) called him, he said he talked to someone else about covering for him because he was sick.  well, that other person said she told him to call if he needed her to work, she never specifically said she would cover the saturday mid shift.  every other employee was either out of town or just couldn't come in, so i ended up staying on for the midshift.  i was there for 11 hours.  yuck.

sunday the same person was supposed to come in at noon again to take over for me.  at 12:20 he showed up and yelled at me bc ashley (the girl who he thought was going to work for him) couldn't work today.  well, ashley's last day of work was friday bc she moved to ohio yesterday to go to school there.  so i don't know how he thought she was going to work today.  and when he asked if anyone came in to cover for him yesterday the manager (who i was working with again) said no, i (me) stayed on for a second shift.  and his reply?  "well, thanks."  completely ungrateful and rude.  

i managed to stay optimistic all weekend and still have fun working (i love my job).  i just want to kill him. 

Current Mood: blah

10:10 pm - the end of summer

well, tomorrow is the last day of summer vacation, and I have to go get books that my teachers have added (i am not looking forward to joining all the other crazy people at the bookstore tomorrow), go to the dentist, and work the close shift.  so, this is pretty much it.

i would have to say that this was an absolutely amazing summer.  April was so long ago, and so much has happened since then!

I took five vacations, Chicago, Traverse City, New York, Cleveland, and Mackinac Island, all of which were amazing (ok, not really traverse city and mackinac island as much).  New York is my new favorite place on earth.

SOOO many concerts!  It started with Fall Out Boy and the All American Rejects, Jacks Mannequin in Cleveland (one of the best shows i've ever been to), Jacks Mannequin here, The All American Rejects at the Comerica Tastefest, Warped Tour, The Format, and I'm sure I'm missing at least one other one.  

I just celebrated my 19th birthday.  Went to Canada (because, duh, thats apparently what you're supposed to do for your 19th).  Last weekend i went to my first frat party, got drunk.  Apparently I was born to hold my alcohol, because based on the amount I drank, everyone said that was a lot, and I wasn't the least bit hung over the next day. 

My internship was not one of the more exiting aspects of the summer, but it was still fun.  I loved the other interns, made some cool new friends :)

I'm happy to be going back to school.  I wish Amanda were still there, I will definately miss having her in classes.  Hopefully this will be my last semester at U of M Dearborn.  But I won't be too upset if I have to keep going there.

Current Mood: tired

09:11 pm

i did it.  

i finished my application for U of M A2.  I just sent it in, and now i have to wait until November (hopefully not that long, though) to find out the results.  

I had my mom read my essays, and she keeps saying "oh, you're in."  and its making me quite nervous.  It boosts my confidence, but I don't know if I really will get in or not, so I don't want to get my hopes up.  

Keep your fingers crossed for me.

07:27 pm

today at work, this pretty cute guy and his semi-cute friend came in, and the pretty cute one had on a "R.I.P Beatz" (the drummer from Bayside) shirt.  I told him i liked his shirt, and he was <I>shocked</i> that i actually knew what it meant.  haha.  

yesterday, i made $11.11 in tips.  

who knows what my shift tomorrow has in store :)

11:40 pm

I told my mom that i want to see a therapist of psychologist or something and she said no, i can just talk to her.  Actually, no i can't mom.  she feels the need to repeat everything i tell her to the entire world, and i'd rather not have everyone knowing all of my problems.  

i had to go back to school today, one of the honors classes i'm taking is a freshman class (i'm making it up since i wasn't at umd first semester) and i had to go to a 2 hour orientation/lecture on summer reading (which i only did about a third of).  I really love the honors professors, so it wasn't terribly bad.  I met a really nice girl too, but i don't think she's in my section :(  

I got home and went on pollstar, as I do every single day hoping for a new Jacks Mannequin date to be added and da da da daaaaa.... there was one!!!  September 14th in Grand Rapids!  SOO excited!

and then my mom and I went to the movies, we saw World Trade Center.  It was kind of sad, but the only time i cried was during the happy part.  Yes, i'm a little weird like that.  I cry when i watch A Wedding Story or A Baby Story on TLC or whatever channel its on.

So, then we got home, and I found the Intersection's website (the venue of the Gr. Rap concert), and quite devestatingly, Jacks Mannequin is not listed to play the show.  Its only the other three bands from the tour.  I went downstairs to tell my mom, and she gave me this fake, sarcastic "oh, well thats too bad."  i don't think she understands how seriously sad i am.  and she thinks that she could be my psychologist.  no.

i still haven't gotten my application in to ann arbor yet.  i don't know if i really want to go.  and i just can't bring myself to write the essays.  i have no clue what to write for two of them (the third one is already done, but 300 words too long.  the "suggested amount" was 250.  and seeing the honors professors again made me realize how much i really love the honors program at dearborn.  i love my classes, i just wish i were living on campus so i could have more of a "college experience."  

i know some of you actually read this, and do care, but its sad that this is the place i come when i'm feeling really emotional.  I wish i had a best friend who actually cared and listened when i wanted to talk.  or was even available.  we dont actually talk about anything.  unless it involves andrew.  thats pretty much the limit to our conversations.

I'm sorry this was long, but like i said, i have no where else to go to share these things, so it gets dumped on all of you and rapes your friends pages.

Current Mood: confused

01:18 am

I just found out that Hellogoodbye is going to be here with DAVE MELILLO (aka the love of my life) October 26th!!!  i could not be more excited!

in less exciting news, i have completed one of the three essays required for the U of M application.  The one i wrote is supposed to be 250 words and mine is 585, and I have no idea what to write for the other two.  My mom and I are going to visit the campus tomorrow.  for as many times as i've been to ann arbor, I've never actually seen or gotten a tour of the campus.

09:32 pm

i'm applying to transfer to ann arbor.  all i have left to do is write the essays and send in my high school transcript.  hopefully both of those things get done tomorrow.  i was going to transfer next fall, but the deadline isn't until oct. 1st for winter semester, so thats what i'm aiming for.  and, if i get my housing application in by dec. 1st i'm guaranteed on campus housing, which i was worried about.  

I'm pretty sure i don't have to work on the 27th!!  yay!  i get to go to the concert!  either way, i get to go to the format concert thursday, which i am mucho excited for!

i'm stressed about this transfer thing.

01:22 am

i told my parents i want to transfer to ann arbor and they got all mad.  my dad wants me to talk to his friend who graduated from umd and thinks its just as good as ann arbor.  the guy is like a dean or something at Lawrence Tech.  Um, yeah there's a reason why its harder to get into a2 though.  i wasn't going to tell them, i was just going to apply and see what happens, but i decided to be stupid and they said i'm not allowed.  too bad for them, cause i'm still applying.

i get to see the format on thursday!!!  yay!!!

and i don't know if i'm gonna quit my job now.  i think i'm just gonna request sunday the 27th off for that concert (amber pacific) and see how things go. 

11:58 pm

i've been updating a lot lately.

my career as a caribou bou-rista is coming to an end.  Tomorrow morning i am going in to put in my 2 weeks notice.  I got in today (at 5 am, on absolutely no sleep) to find out that next week I am only on the schedule for 2 shifts, one on thursday which I requested of a long long long time ago for the format concert, and sunday, the day my relatives are coming over for my brother's birthday.  today my manager was talking about making this other girl who was hired at the exact same time as me a supervisor.  she seriously isn't all that bright, so it makes me a little upset that she is getting promoted and not me.  and i seem to always be on the schedule for sundays from 2 until 10:30.  and my manager makes a huge deal if i ask for a sunday off.  like this coming sunday i'm going up north.  It would be nice if i didn't have to work every sunday.  its like making someone close every friday and/or saturday night.  thats just not fair.   I guess it woulnd't be that bad if i actually liked working there, but i don't really like any of the other people and i don't really like working there.  I have had enough with the food industry.

so tomorrow i'm going to start looking for a new job.  hooray.

03:57 am

My alarm clock is going to go off in 13 minutes (4:10 am) for me to go to work.  I have not yet fallen asleep.  I have to work a 7 hour shift (5 till noon).  

12 minutes now.

08:36 pm

Because this seems to be the cool thing to do right now...

03:51 pm

Hellogoodbye posted all of their new album on their Myspace today, but you can't skip through the songs, the only way to listen to it is to listen to the entire thing all the way through.  Its very annoying.  I got through the first two songs, the second of which was "Here in Your Arms," one of my all time favorites, and I liked the demo of Here in Your Arms better.

Alternative Press decided to end my subscription without telling me.  I have not yet received my September issue, so I assumed that my subscription is up and went to Borders in Novi (the only store that carries it) to buy it.  While I was there, I also found a sewing magazine, an LSAT prep book, a book about Law Schools that one of the other interns recommended and Brave New World.  I went with the intention of buying one magazine (which would have cost $4) but ended up spending $65.  Good thing I get paid today.

I stopped at Beaner's on my way home.  The service is always so horrible in there, but their Caramel Big Chills are so good.  I probably go in there at least twice a week, I always get the same thing, and the same person (the manager) always waits on me, and he still hasn't figured out my drink yet.  I can usually pick up on regulars and their drinks after three days.  They are very slow at Beaners.  And I hate how they ask "what else can i get for you" after you tell them what drink you want.  Its so pushy compared to "would you like anything else?" or "is that all?"  Thank god i decided not to work there.  

In the new issue of AP that I picked up at Borders, there is an article about Jacks Mannequin's guitar tech!  Yay!!  I knew there was an article about Hellogoodbye, because they have a cd coming out on tuesday (hooray!), but i didn't know about this article and I was mucho excited to see it :D

I have to work tonight from 5 till 11:30.  Yuck.  It is so weird when people from high school come in that I know, but never actually talked to in high school (LIndsay and Lindsay, this does not apply to you).  I don't know if they recognize me, so I don't want to say anything, and its just weird.  It happened yesterday, and its happened before.  I guess thats what happens when you work in Livonia's only major chain coffee shop.  But its still weird.

06:54 pm

I think the "cool" factor of meeting Andrew is wearing off.  Its still awesome, but I got to meet TAI and TEN (lol) at Warped, and seriously, I can't help but smile to myself when I think about it.  I honestly want to cry when I think about how absolutely adorable and sweet William Beckett is.  Words cannot describe how incredibly nice he was.  The guys in the Early November were super sweet too.  I am madly in love (seriously) with their merch guy, Paulie.  He is ADORABLE and so sweet!  Ace felt the need to embrace the fact that we were in Detroit in the picture we took with him, he's doing some gangta move, i don't know, i'll probably post the picture on myspace later.  We met Ace's wife too.  She was very very nice.  We saw that they were going to start playing in like 10 minutes so we (caitlyn and I) went over to her to ask where the stage was.  Overall, Warped was 1000 times better than I thought it was going to be.  Hellogoodbye's signing was the same time as TAI's, so we didn't get to meet them, but their set was so much fun!

In sadder news, my internship ended today.  Yay I have the rest of my summer free (except that now i'll just be working at Caribou more), but sad bc I met a lot of cool people there who I will miss dearly.  All the other interns were great and I had a wonderful time working with them :)

Ok, my brother's birthday is tomorrow, and I have to go buy him a present.  Its his 16th, so he's getting his license (he already pased the road test), so I was thinking about getting him fake spinners for his car.  Haha. 

Current Mood: indifferent

04:03 pm - The best week of my life (lots of Andrew McMahon)

I haven't posted in a very long time. And I have nothing else to do before I go to work, so here goes...  

The week between July 7th and July 14th was probably the best week of my life. Seriously. Thursday the 6th my mom and I left for New York City. It was by far the best vacation I've ever been on. I want to go back there already. The highlight of the trip was visiting CBGB's. It was in a shady area, so my mom was kind of scared, but I thought it was totally awesome. They weren't open, but I begged this guy sitting inside the door to let me go in, and he finally let me in. Honestly, words cannot describe how amazing it was. Very very small, but truly amazing.

We came home Sunday, I worked at my internship Monday, then Tuesday Caitlyn and i went to Cleveland to see Jacks Mannequin! The doors opened at 6, but we got there at about noon and were about the 10th people in line. Not too shabby. There was some secret deal going on, everyone else in line seemed to know about it, and we finally found out that if you ate at the House of Blues (which is where the concert was) you got to go in early. So we finally went inside and ate with two other girls who were sitting next to us in line. But I think pretty much everyone knew about this secret plan, so there was a long line of people for this. We tried to sneak to the front of this line, but it didn't work, so we ended up probably about 40 people back. We were really upset since we had gotten there so early. But we got in and got spots on the floor (general admission) just left of center, in the second row! yay! After the opener, everyone started squeezing and we made it to the front :D It was probably the best show of my life. Andrew played Everything in Transit from start to finish, then he came out for an encore and played Katie (aaaahhhh!!!), 21 and Invincible, Me and the Moon, and then he said their last song would be a B-side and he played Meet Me at My Window. I was kind of sad bc I was really hoping to hear his cover of American Girl by Tom Petty, my new favorite song. Well, after Meet Me at My Window, he went right into American Girl! yay!

After the show we got track jackets and t shirts, then went out by the tour bus to try to meet andrew. It was pouring rain. He came out though and met everyone standing out there. I was wearing my favorite shoes, and they got completely ruined in the rain, but it was well worth it.

We went back to our hotel and went to bed, and when we got up to leave the next morning, guess who's tour bus was parked in the parking lot of our hotel...that's right, Andrew's!! We didn't actually see them at the hotel, but it was still unbelievable. It took us awhile to drive home bc there was a bad storm.

Thursday I went to my internship again. Boring. Friday was the Jacks Mannequin concert at Meadowbrook with OAR. We heard Friday morning that we got into the meet and greet before the show, so we got there an hour early for it, but it turns out it was TWO hours before the show, so we missed it. We were so sad. We sat down, our seats were increadibly far from the stage, which sucked. We found some girls who we had met at the Cleveland show and we all ended up sneaking down closer and closer because everyone who had tickets obviously wanted to see OAR and therefore didn't show up for Jacks Mannequin. Sadness, but good for us :) He played American Girl again, I was so happy. I taped it on my camera, but I was screaming so loud throughout the whole song all you can hear is me screaming, lol.

After the show, we met some people from Churchill, April, Tyler, Eric, and a few others. April desparately wanted to meet Andrew, as did Caitlyn and I, so we all waited by the merch talbe for him, for a very long time. Casper walked by and we asked him if Andrew was coming, and he said "its possible, its very possible" which we took to mean yes. Well, Casper lied. Andrew never came. At the very end of OAR's set, we decided to drive over to the VIP parking lot and stand outside his tour bus. It was raining again. We were only standing outside the bus for about 5 minutes when Andrew came out!! yay! Me, Caitlyn, April, and Eric were the only ones standing there, so it wasn't like it normally is where there is a long line and everyone is rushed to take a picture and move along. It was amazing! 

If you made it all the way through that, congratulations.  I didn't think it was going to be that long, and now I'm probably going to be late for work.  nice. 

I tried to use and lj-cut but it isn't working for me and i'm running late.  sorry.

Current Mood: tired

12:39 am

The bassist from Heirs and I were wearing the same pants.

11:58 pm

I think i'm being stalked. I don't mean this in the sense that i feel like i'm being followed, i mean it in that the same person (whom i do know) keeps showing up everywhere I go. Said person was at the fireworks tonight.

This morning I got up at 6 am to come home from Traverse City. It was quite a boring vacation. We only had one car with us, so when my parents took it to go to the casino, i was stuck in the hotel room with nothing to do.

When we got home today, I had to make Emma's graduation present. Well, my brand new sewing machine decided to jam up and stop working. And my mom's doesn't work either, that's why I bought a new one. So I went to Caitlyn's to borrow her's but I couldn't figure out how to use it. I eventually got my new one to work and was only about an hour late to the party (yes, the party was today and I was making the present last minute).

I still have to write like six journal entries for my internship tonight, then i have to get up early tomorrow to go to my internship, then drive all the way to dearborn to turn in my journals tomorrow. I am so tired right now.

The Early November's video for "Hair" premiers tomorrow on mtvU and mtv2! watch it!

11:42 pm

this is a very music-heavy post.

jacks mannequin's song "dark blue" has won the people's choice four nights in a row on 89x! tonight, it won with 80% of the votes; thats a LOT compared to what most of the songs usually get. Also, The Mixed Tape was #1 on VH1's Top 20 Countdown! I am so excited for them!

Dave Melillo's cd is coming out on tuesday, and I just found out that I can preorder it through Drive Thru's website and it comes with a free signed poster! I can't wait to see him next friday! P.S. if you didn't get my 10,000 messages about downloading his cd, you missed out. You can't get it at MTVu anymore, but let me know and i'll send it to you.

Every year there is the Comerica Tastefest in Detroit, theres food and free music and fun to be had by all. I went a few years ago and saw Rooney (for free!), well this year one of the bands is the All-American Rejects! Its the 4th of July!

The Format's new cd is also coming out on the 4th of July! AND they are coming to detroit August 17th! Quite sadly, this is the SAME day Teddy Geiger is coming here. I am so devestated by this, I love them both. I have decided to go to the Format show, however. I think I might love them a teensy bit more. But i'll be sad about Teddy Geiger the whole time i'm there.

On a less happy note, The Early November has released these "e-cards," one for each cd that is coming out (3 total), and the last one came out today. It was for "The Path" the cd that tells the story, and it is scary. Seriously. The guy who is talking's voice is going to give me nightmares.

Not music related, I saw the breakup tonight. It was decent. Just My Luck was better. I saw Just My Luck twice already and I would go see it again. Let me know if you want to go see it, i'll go with you.

Current Mood: happy

10:40 pm

isn't it weird when you learn about something, or hear a new word or whatever that you've never heard before, and then you keep hearing it again and again. Is this just me, or do other people get this too??

I just found out that Jared Leto is in 30 Seconds to Mars. I've heard of the band, I know what kind of music they play (i don't specifically know any of their stuff) and i know who jared leto is- I love the movie Requiem for a Dream, and he's in American Psycho (which i'm sad to admit that I own on VHS), but I never knew that he was in the band.

and then, there were two music secrets about the band (and about jared leto being in the band), and then I was listening to a radio program on GVSU's radio station, and the person was talking about Jared Leto and 30 seconds to mars. It is so weird!!

30 seconds to mars in going on tour this month, i think with the audition (who were amazing live), but they aren't playing in detroit, just Grand Rapids, and I'm going to be in New York when they're there. Sad.

12:01 am

haven't updated in awhile.


looking for a job is very stressful. I waited for beaner's coffee to open bc its very close to my house and i really wanted to work there, so i didnt apply anywhere else. well, i got the job, but the manager was a complete jerk, so i didn't accept it. i have an interview at caribou coffee tomorrow and one at american eagle on tuesday. i really hope i get the job at ae, that would be awesome. i actually filled out an application there bc i had nothing better to do, i never thought they would call. i applied at probably about 10 other places, mostly food service places, but none of them have called.

i was in a really bad mood earlier today, sparked by this afternoon's events. not good. but then i was watching fuse and on steven's untitled rock show they were doing a tour of historic music sites in new york! (oh yeah, i'm going to nyc in july) so i taped it so that i can visit those places :) i ran to get a tape during a music video, and as it was ending i was worried cause i wasn't ready yet, but then another music video came on and it was SOMETHING CORPORATE!! i've seen the video a thousand times (i woke up in a car), but i was still awesome! then i found out that the dave melillo show is on a friday, not a wednesday like i thought, which is amazing bc i have to work until 4 on wednesdays (at my internship) and we are getting tickets at the door and it opens at 6 and we probably couldn't get there till 530. now we can go early! (btw there really is no "we," i don't know who's going with me, so if you want to go, let me know) and then i made rice krispie treats with chocolate chips in them. they're good :)

my mom and i just went to see just my luck. i already saw it a couple weeks ago, but i loved it, so we went again. :)

AND beth confirmed the concert for tomorrow! yay! i haven't been to a concert in so long! (ok, really its probably only been about a month) but i'm so excited! but i do have the interview at caribou coffee at noon, i'm a little nervous bc i don't really want the job, lol.

Current Mood: tired